Life is gonna get hectic

I had a prenatal appointment yesterday at 31 weeks pregnant. Next Friday I have an ultrasound to check on the baby’s growth, but the week after my life is going to get stressful.

I will need non-stress tests twice a week until the end of my pregnancy. As long as my ultrasound next Friday goes well I will only need one more before delivery at 36 weeks. Around that same time my cerclage should be removed. Once my cerclage is removed I need to be ready for labor to start. Cerclage removal has never led to my going into labor, but it could happen.

My 3 full term pregnancies have all ended by induction. The first was at 39 weeks 4 days, the second was at 39 weeks 2 days and the last one was at 38 weeks 6 days. I am expecting an induction around 39 weeks again this time. That’s only 8 weeks away!

I am still working 30-40 hours a week and will possibly be spending several hours a week in the doctor’s office. When my regular home life with a teenager and two toddlers gets thrown into the mix I see exhaustion and mood swings in my future.

We haven’t started preparing for this baby yet. We have baby clothes stored from my last pregnancy that need to be sorted through for neutral items, and the few clothes that we’ve purchased for this baby need to be washed. We need to purchase a new infant car seat, and a bed for our middle son. We’ll take his toddler bed and put the side back on it to use as a crib. Where to put that crib is another issue. We need to get creative in our house to make a bedroom out of a storage room and part of another room. My husband and I are still in the planning phase of that project. I do plan on using a co-sleeper early on while breastfeeding, but eventually she’ll need her own space. We do have a nice pack n’ play to use for naps that we can set up wherever is convenient. There will be a period of learning sleep schedules to decide where that may be in this house of rowdy boys. She might be able to nap in the little boys bedroom while our almost 2 year old naps, it may be in my bedroom, or who knows it could be the kitchen if that’s the quietest place during the day. 😉 We’ll just have to see how it goes.


Carpal tunnel syndrome

This week has been awful in regards to my carpal tunnel syndrome. Because I have a very repetitive job I have been dealing with CTS for years, and treating it with ibuprofen. Unfortunately during pregnancy you can’t take Ibuprofen. I haven’t worked or done much since Friday afternoon, but I am still extremely symptomatic. My hands go numb using my phone, showering, cooking… basically no matter what I do. 😦

I wake during the night with pain and numbness. I had a hard time working this week, since I have to hold a box cutter. At some points I couldn’t feel it in my hand. I asked if there were any other light duty options for me since I am currently working with restrictions. The answer was sweeping and dusting. Holding a broom at the end of my shift instantly made my right hand go numb. I thought maybe it was because I had been working all day, but last night I swept up a mess and again instantly went numb.

I am concerned that I may not be able to work much longer. I have worn splints at night, but am still suffering. I need to work another 6-7 weeks in order to have job protection. I really wish I could just take Ibuprofen. This is my fourth pregnancy to reach this gestation, but most certainly my worst experience with carpal tunnel.

Still Waiting

I’m waiting to find out if the cause of my bleeding can be confirmed, and if I need to be on restricted activity.

My gut feeling is that the subchorionic hemorrhage seen on ultrasound in February is draining, but I am nervous it may have grown or is causing problems.

I am very anxious about returning to my very physical job tomorrow, since basically laying on the couch all weekend hasn’t stopped the bleeding. The bleeding is not a flow, or bright red. It’s definitely old blood coming out… still unnerving for a pregnant woman to see.

I want some answers today. This has been a stressful weekend. My obgyn is very busy today and at first offered an appointment between 3-3:45. That seemed too late for my liking. They were able to squeeze me in with the oncall doctor at 1:20.

This doesn’t really comfort me much since I really want to have an ultrasound to get a good look at what is going on. I really hope they can make that happen.

I can’t be sent home with unexplained bleeding, and normal activity unless things get worse. That’s too scary for me. I want to know that going back to my job of heavy lifting won’t lead to premature delivery. I understand there can’t be a guarantee of that, but if it looks too risky to be lifting 40-50 pound cases regularly I want to know.


At 18 weeks pregnant, with a cerclage in place I am bleeding. I got up for my morning restroom visit, to discover bright red blood. It was there when I wiped, but I don’t seem to have active, heavy bleeding.

I called the oncall doctor, who said they would check for a heartbeat, but at 18 weeks they can’t do anything. I already found her heartbeat before calling, so now I am just supposed to take it easy this weekend. If my bleeding or symptoms worsen, like if I developed cramping then I need to call back to be seen at the hospital.

I was not looking forward to getting myself and 3 kids ready for a trip to the hospital this morning, but I want to be reassured that my cerclage hasn’t failed. If I should be restricting my time up on my feet I want to know that.

My 1 1/2 year old son was climbing and practically jumping on my belly this morning when he woke at 2am, and my job required and excessive amount of bending/heavy lifting yesterday. I really hope my stitch hasn’t torn. I have to be prepared for the possibility of being pulled out of work. I’d like to know if that’s where I am at before Monday.

It Was Time

Today, I decided to dig out my maternity clothes. Some of my jeans have started to become a bit uncomfortable to wear for a whole day.

My weight is actually down from my pre-pregnancy weight, but my body is still changing. At my last appointment my doctor said my uterus felt as it should for my gestation, so she wasn’t overly concerned by my weight loss. She did say that she hopes to see my weight plateau or increase by my next appointment.

I’ve been eating poorly this week, so I imagine my weight will be up. I have to be careful though since I do have gestational diabetes.

I have been struggling with both high and low blood sugars lately. The lows scare me more than the highs. I will either wake up sweaty and shaky, or it will happen in the morning while I am at work. The days it happens at work are frustrating. I have a very physical and production driven job, so it’s hard to take the time to get my blood sugar levels in check while still working. I have taken lunch breaks early to hurry and get some food to raise my sugar, but then it throws my schedule off and it seems I battle the lows all day. I try to keep something on hand that will give me a quick boost when I need it, but it slows me down and stresses me out to worry about it.

I have my anatomy screening booked, and my fetal echocardiogram too. I’m getting to the point where I am filling my spare time with appointments. It’s stressful, but worth it to make sure this baby is healthy.

A Baby Every Two Years?

I never thought I would be one of those people who has a baby every two years. Some people say it’s perfect spacing, I personally thought it was difficult. The boys get along really well most of the time though. Right now I have a son who will be 13 in May, a son who turned 3 in October and a son who turned 1 in September. My 3 year old refuses to potty train, so I have two in diapers. My next baby is due early September, but could be born late August due to scheduling an induction. So, within a month of delivery I will have a 4 year old, 2 year old and newborn. I really hope I will get my 3 year old using a toilet before then. 3 in diapers would be a nightmare!

I have dealt with infertility, and miscarriage, so I never expected to be a mom of children so close in age. Honestly I never expected to have another child after my first born. He was my second pregnancy, and conceived with the help of fertility drugs. We did try to conceive with the help of less invasive fertility treatments after having my son, but nothing worked. We did conceive twice naturally in 2010 and 2011, but those pregnancies ended in miscarriage. Then in 2014 I conceived again, but had early intervention with progesterone supplements. My son was born full term and healthy. To our surprise we found ourselves expecting again in January 2016. We we’re monitored closely and delivered full term again. Now, January 2018 has us shocked with the news of another pregnancy. I have had my hcg levels checked twice, and my progesterone level checked too. My hcg  more than doubled in under 48 hours from 816-1777. My progesterone level was over 17. Everything looks good for a healthy pregnancy so far. I will have my first ultrasound 1/23/18. I don’t expect to see much, but I’m hoping to get a glimpse of a flickering heartbeat.

I’m trying to imagine having my 3 little ones, and teenager this fall. It’s scary and exciting. 

We might be done after this pregnancy… that’s if my husband actually gets the operation he mentioned we should consider.


Life sure is different with my son in school, instead of homeschooling.

I have changed my work schedule, so that I can be home when he is dropped off by the bus. I had to give up my unpaid lunch in order to make it happen. I tried my new schedule Thursday and Friday. I didn’t really miss the break at all. I just had a larger snack on my first break, to satisfy me longer. I then took my second break about an hour after I would have normally taken my lunch. The 20 minute break is plenty of time to eat my lunch and call hubby to check in on him and the little ones. Both days I made it home before the bus, but if there wasn’t construction traffic slowing down the bus I may not have. I need to make sure I am ready to leave at 2, instead of 2:05.

Some people might think negatively of me for thinking it is so important for me to be home before the bus. I just want to hear how my son’s day went right away, as my husband hears about it too. I don’t want my son to have to tell the same stories twice. I realize that at some point he won’t be so eager to share how his day went, but I will always have questions for him. “Normal” ones, like do you have homework, and others that relate to his adjusting to the school environment and socialization.

So far, my husband and I aren’t impressed with the amount of work he is getting done. For example: he hasn’t done any real math in his math class after 6 days of school. They have been working on an ISN, or interactive student notebook. All this has shown hubby and I, is that the teacher has control issues. She has the students tape handouts into the notebook, and doesn’t want to see any “guts” or parts of the papers sticking out. She had them decorate the covers, and is covering them with packing tape. Being organized is great, but forcing everyone to take notes exactly the same way, and on the same page/side of a page in a notebook seems like a bit much to me. My son is also in a class that doesn’t really have a title. It seems like a study hall to me, but the teacher asks random questions in it, or shows slides with a projector. It just doesn’t appear to be an actual class. A lot of what he explains about his day seems to be a huge waste of time….which is one of the reasons we homeschooled for 6 years. If he hadn’t had such a rough time this summer, I wouldn’t have put him in public school.

I haven’t asked him about his thoughts at school, and he hasn’t shared any negative ones. I plan on gently asking today or tomorrow. I don’t want to cause thoughts to arise by my questioning, but I also want him to know he can share them with me so he doesn’t feel like he has to hide them or struggle through them alone. Part of his uncomfortableness sharing them is thinking about what others think of him for having “bad” thoughts. So far, he has been told his thoughts are completely normal ones.

We are all getting used to new sleep schedules. This Monday will be my first day being alone to make sure he is up and on the bus on time. My husband basically slept through my actual first day getting my son out for school last Tuesday. I will be here 3 days this week, and I am guessing I will be the one to get up when the alarm sounds. I have an extra day off this week for my Baby’s First Birthday! It will be sad having my twelve year old at school, rather than home to celebrate with us. We don’t really celebrate birthdays, but we could have taken a day trip somewhere. We’ll have some sort of cake, and that will be after my son is home from school. It’ll just be strange not doing our normal type of celebration. The freedom of homeschooling is very much missed. 😦