Losing Faith, But Holding On To Hope

Here is a blog written by my husband. It shows some of the journey we are on seeking truth.



Trying to find where we belong

My husband has been searching for a church for us for quite some time. We were members of one in a nearby town until we questioned practices and were basically ostracized. This happened around Christmastime, when the church was planning activities to invite the public to. We thought that not doing all of the comfortable/typical/worldly Christmas activities would help us stand out as a church and do more for the Kingdom of God than decorating Santa cookies etc. The problem was, that the church leaders were not willing to let go of man’s traditions. They thought we were taking the joy out of life and being legalistic. We thought we were stepping away from the greed/envy/jealousy/stress etc. that the holiday season brings with it.

My husband has looked into so many different Christian denominations. Some are pretty close to what we believe and some are way off. Most recently, he has been looking into Judaism. Christianity hasn’t felt right, so he’s digging deeper into the roots of our faith. Jesus was Jewish, and followed the Jewish practices. Whether Jesus was or wasn’t the messiah, he was Jewish. If we’re supposed to follow him to the Father, shouldn’t we be following Jewish beliefs?

Worrying about what the right religion to follow is, has caused many sleepless nights for my husband. I am so grateful that he is our family’s spiritual leader, and that he really cares about our relationship with God. My constant prayer is for God to show us the path to follow, and how to be who He wants us to be. I think God has been answering my prayer through our religious transition over the past several years. We went from believing everything we were told to be true, to actually doing research and trusting our guts. When something just felt wrong we would do research and find our feelings to be justified.

Whether we convert or not, my husband found something very interesting in his research. He read about the seven laws of Noah. These Noahide laws are supposed to be a binding set of laws for the “children of Noah” which is all of humanity! These laws are said to assure those who follow them “a place in the world to come”.

Here is the list he found…

1. Do not deny God

2. Do not blaspheme God

3. Do not murder

4. Do not engage in illicit sexual relations

5. Do not steal

6. Do not eat from a live animal

7. Establish courts/legal system to ensure obedience to said laws.

We know we are far from perfect, but we are striving to be what God designed us to be. We want to set a good example for our children and set them on the right path. We don’t want to give them mixed messages, and confuse them about our faith. We are growing in our faith all the time, and learning new truths as we do. My oldest child is 12, and has experienced some changes in our belief system. I really want to find truth and our place soon, so the little ones don’t have to experience the confusion and stress of sorting through mistranslation, flat out lies and discrepancy.

Evolving Faith

This blog was written by my husband. It shows how over time as we grow our faith and relationship with God our understanding of who He is, and who Jesus is may change. God wants us to know Him, and the more we read our Bible the more we will.

I know that the title of this blog contains the word evolution, but I’m not here to get into that. This is just a quick blog about changes in my beliefs over a relatively short period of time. A blog about creation versus evolution would just take too long right now so I’ll just leave […]

via The Evolution Of Faith — One of God’s Children Seeking the Truth


It’s been quite a while since I have written a post, so I am taking the time to do so today. I really don’t have much to write about though.

My husband and I are looking for some Bible study materials, but we haven’t had any luck finding material that isn’t  “churchy”. We don’t want to do a study that just spews out catchy phrases, or that builds on false doctrine that has been passed down as truth.

We like the pamphlets that the United Church of God puts out, and they are free to download or to request through the mail. We’d just have to try to figure out how to use one as a Bible study to do with another couple. We need something that keeps interest up, and that we can generate conversations that really get us digging into the Bible. Our most recent studies have been video based, and they have had prepared discussion questions. We hardly ever had to pull out a Bible, or Bible app while doing those types of studies though. Some of the questions were either difficult to understand, or just seemed silly and sort of a waste of time.

We have a desire to follow Jesus and his example more closely. I know that I could be doing more to be Christlike and lead by example. I doubt many people see me as Christlike in my everyday life. They may see me as a hard worker, or as quiet, but I don’t think they see me doing for others like Jesus would be. I can be a very self centered, selfish person at times. I do help people when the situation arises, but I know I should try harder, and do more.

Now, I will add just a few thoughts on Thanksgiving…. I appreciate that our country has set aside a day when most people are able to take time to be with their families, and take time to be thankful for the wonderful people/things in their lives. I don’t think that we should limit our being thankful to one day a year. I do think we need to be thanking God everyday for the wonderful gifts he has provided for us all. The craziness that has become Thanksgiving is just awful in my opinion. I can’t stand the advertisements about holiday shopping sales. We are supposed to be thanking God for all that we have, not rushing out for the next biggest/best thing that we just need to have. My family and I do not celebrate Christmas, and I am so thankful we made that decision. The greed and negativity that surround this holiday are nothing that I want to be a part of. Many people are envious of my stressfree holiday season, but they are not willing to give up traditions, that they don’t even have reasons for following besides the fact they’ve just always done it.