Stripped Of My Faith: Overcome By Both Sadness And Relief


Trying to find where we belong

My husband has been searching for a church for us for quite some time. We were members of one in a nearby town until we questioned practices and were basically ostracized. This happened around Christmastime, when the church was planning activities to invite the public to. We thought that not doing all of the comfortable/typical/worldly Christmas activities would help us stand out as a church and do more for the Kingdom of God than decorating Santa cookies etc. The problem was, that the church leaders were not willing to let go of man’s traditions. They thought we were taking the joy out of life and being legalistic. We thought we were stepping away from the greed/envy/jealousy/stress etc. that the holiday season brings with it.

My husband has looked into so many different Christian denominations. Some are pretty close to what we believe and some are way off. Most recently, he has been looking into Judaism. Christianity hasn’t felt right, so he’s digging deeper into the roots of our faith. Jesus was Jewish, and followed the Jewish practices. Whether Jesus was or wasn’t the messiah, he was Jewish. If we’re supposed to follow him to the Father, shouldn’t we be following Jewish beliefs?

Worrying about what the right religion to follow is, has caused many sleepless nights for my husband. I am so grateful that he is our family’s spiritual leader, and that he really cares about our relationship with God. My constant prayer is for God to show us the path to follow, and how to be who He wants us to be. I think God has been answering my prayer through our religious transition over the past several years. We went from believing everything we were told to be true, to actually doing research and trusting our guts. When something just felt wrong we would do research and find our feelings to be justified.

Whether we convert or not, my husband found something very interesting in his research. He read about the seven laws of Noah. These Noahide laws are supposed to be a binding set of laws for the “children of Noah” which is all of humanity! These laws are said to assure those who follow them “a place in the world to come”.

Here is the list he found…

1. Do not deny God

2. Do not blaspheme God

3. Do not murder

4. Do not engage in illicit sexual relations

5. Do not steal

6. Do not eat from a live animal

7. Establish courts/legal system to ensure obedience to said laws.

We know we are far from perfect, but we are striving to be what God designed us to be. We want to set a good example for our children and set them on the right path. We don’t want to give them mixed messages, and confuse them about our faith. We are growing in our faith all the time, and learning new truths as we do. My oldest child is 12, and has experienced some changes in our belief system. I really want to find truth and our place soon, so the little ones don’t have to experience the confusion and stress of sorting through mistranslation, flat out lies and discrepancy.

Evolving Faith

This blog was written by my husband. It shows how over time as we grow our faith and relationship with God our understanding of who He is, and who Jesus is may change. God wants us to know Him, and the more we read our Bible the more we will.

I know that the title of this blog contains the word evolution, but I’m not here to get into that. This is just a quick blog about changes in my beliefs over a relatively short period of time. A blog about creation versus evolution would just take too long right now so I’ll just leave […]

via The Evolution Of Faith — One of God’s Children Seeking the Truth

Here is a copy of my husband’s most recent blog post.

Matthew 7:13-14 is something we like to quote and it’s something we tend to use to show the rest of the world that we are on moral high ground. The verse is this: “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter […]

via The Sermon On The Mount Makes Us Feel Good That We’re On The Narrow Path. But Are We Really? Are We Sure? — One of God’s Children Seeking the Truth

It’s Christmastime

Yesterday I had someone ask if it was my baby’s first Christmas, or second. I answered that it was his second, but that we don’t celebrate it. She told me it was overrated anyway, and that her six year old daughter was too serious for Santa already. She said her daughter said to her “Santa? Really? What are you getting me?” Ah, the joys of Christmas. NOT!

I know that I did it out of tradition, and following the crowd, but I am so happy to have stopped all the non-sense. Why do we ever think it is right to lie to our children? I have a video of my oldest son on  Christmas morning when he was about 2 years old, and we are asking him who came last night. What used to make me smile, now makes me feel sick. I love the video for the cute memories of my son as a toddler, but I feel like trashing it at the same time.

My youngest child, will never celebrate Christmas with us, and that’s ok. I can still make adorable videos of him getting a gift from us and watching his reactions, but it will never be for Christmas pretending that someone else brought it for him. One of the best gifts we can give our children is honesty. When they do discover the lie of Santa, they will wonder what else we have been lying about, and not trust us.

When you really sit down and ask yourself why you do what you do this time of year, do you have a better answer than “It’s tradition”, “We always have”, “It’s fun”, “It’s pretty” or “I don’t know”? I could not think of a better reason, even when we focused on Jesus more. We still had the tree, decorations, presents and stress, but with a nativity set too. We’d watch the nativity story to make us feel better about how we celebrated, but it was still a time focused on us.

God will never be our focus if we are so worried about the perfect gift, decorations, meal etc.. Being Christians we would put a spin on what we did to make it seem like we were honoring God, trying to justify how we were doing worldly things in His name. A Christ follower should really be standing out this time of year, by not following the crowd, but by going down the narrow path. I know my family stands out as different. I hope that by not blending in with the crowd we can lead more people to Christ.

If you are reading this post as a Christian, and thinking I am crazy for not celebrating Christ’s birth with all of the other Christians this time of year, know that there is no need to choose a specific time of year to remember Christ’s birth. We can be thankful that he came and died for us every day, and we should be.

Here is a link to a post written by my husband that you might appreciate if you liked this one.