No Longer Nursing

The time has come. I have stopped breastfeeding my little guy. 😦

It has been hard for me the past couple of days. I am not having any discomfort, because my supply had dropped already. When I am gone all day, then come home to him the temptation to nurse him has been strong. I just want my snuggle time with him. He was always soothed easily by nursing when he was upset too.

This morning he was awake around 4am, and very cranky. I would normally bring him to bed to nurse and either keep him with me for a couple of hours or put him back to bed when he fell asleep. Instead, I warmed him a bottle of milk. It was very tough to do when I was completely exhausted, and knew we could both just doze while he nursed.

He has been drinking whole milk, juice and water from bottles or sippy cups for quite a while anyway. He is doing fine. He did seem to grab at my shirt/chest the other day after work, but it may have been my imagination. πŸ˜‰


He’s One!

My little boy had his first birthday Wednesday.πŸ˜€

We didn’t really celebrate. We had to have cake though. πŸ˜‰ We did sing Happy Birthday, but the almost 3 year old was screaming through the whole song. He settled down when I asked him to blow out the candle. I only lit the candle because I had one. I didn’t expect the baby to blow it out.πŸ˜›

Jacob enjoyed the cake. He squished it in his hands, put it up his nose..down his shirt and in his hair. He got his birthday bath once he stopped eating.

Maybe the toddler will do better with the singing in a couple of weeks when he’s the birthday boy.☺

Oh What A Night/Morning This Is Going To Be

Around 8 pm hubby was getting tired. He had been up since 3:30 this morning, and worked 11 1/2 hours with an hour commute on each end of that, so I suppose being tired was warranted. πŸ˜‰ I thought well, I can’t go to sleep now. The toddler was “napping”. He had been cranky around 5:30, so I put him in his crib with a movie to watch so I could get some things done before dinner. He fell asleep, like I knew he really needed to. 

I should have woken him up for dinner, but the house was peaceful. πŸ˜‰ I just didn’t think to wake him, and when I did think about it, I also thought he might just sleep through the night. 

I had put the baby to bed around 8, and then the rest of the family just hung out in the livingroom using devices and watching tv. Hubby did fall asleep on the couch, but around 10 I woke him to go to bed. I guessed that the toddler would wake up as soon as I decided to lay down, but no, it was the baby who woke up as soon as my teeth were brushed. I took him to bed with me, so I could nurse him and get some rest. He ate for about 30 minutes then fell asleep. I figured it would be too risky to take him to his crib, since he shares a bedroom with the toddler. I really wanted to get at least 2 hours of sleep. Lately the baby has been up every 2-3 hours to nurse. The baby slept on my chest, and I tried to fall asleep. Around 11:15 the toddler was calling out a request for pizza through the monitor.:(

It was time to carry the baby to bed, and switch to toddler mode. πŸ˜‰ I changed his diaper, got him a drink and made him a pizza. He’ll be up for hours. 😦 

So, he’s got Paw Patrol on, a couple of toys to play with and his tablet…he can’t just focus on one thing. Especially his “dinner”, he’s only had a few bites of that pizza he was calling for as soon as he woke up. 

My eyes are feeling heavy, and I just want to pass out. I don’t have a set time to be up, but we have a busy day ahead of us, and I wanted to be well rested. I guess that won’t be happening. πŸ˜› We have to go to the library,  drop the car off at a garage, pick up a rental car and grocery shop. We would like to get everything done early, to be home at a reasonable time. The library was to be our first stop, and they don’t open until 10am, so I suppose I could still manage to get a few hours of sleep. I’m hoping the toddler will be satisfied with his meal soon, and happy to go back to his room if I offer another movie. We’ll see. Until then, I guess I will just read some blogs. 

Baby’s First FeverΒ 

My poor baby is 7 months old, and has his first fever. His 11 year old brother had a fever of 103 a few nights ago. I really hope Jakey doesn’t get one that high.πŸ˜’ It’s only been up to 101, but he’s a helpless little babe. The 2 year old slept a solid 12 hours last night, and has been fighting a cold himself. So far thankfully, he doesn’t have a fever. My 11 year old, and I both have chest congestion and coughs. This is all stemming from the illness I recently wrote about. This has lingered way too long!

It still upsets me that someone was not upfront with me about her family’s illness, but I still think I might have allowed my son to go on the outing anyway. I do think the original illness came from that outing, but since it is lingering and the fever hit so far into the illness we may have caught something else while we were at a weakened state. 😞

It just breaks my heart to hear my infant coughing, and miserably whining. 

My Baby Is Growing Up Too Fast

Today I gave my little man bananas for the first time. I can’t believe he’s eating solid food already. I started giving him thin rice cereal about once a day a month ago, so I knew this day would come.

He has been very interested in food and untensils for a while now. I think he would try to eat anything I put in front of him, since that’s basically all he does. Every toy, blanket or body part he can reach (his own or otherwise) goes straight in his mouth. πŸ˜‰

He did really well with the banana today. I wasn’t sure if I should just mash it and give it to him like that, or if I should make it thinner by mixing breastmilk into it. I decided to try it plain and apparently the texture was not an issue for him since he gobbled it up, pulling the spoon right to his mouth. He never had the instinct to push it out of his mouth, and surprisingly didn’t make any faces that would lead me to believe he didn’t care for it.

Breastfeeding isn’t really easy, but now that we are adding solid foods to his diet our routine will become more difficult. Our days will require more planning and clean up. We will also be less flexible to be spontaneous. As long as I had nursed him, we could go anywhere and know that as long as I was with him he’d have a meal ready when he was hungry again. Now, I’ll still be nursing him but we’ll have to make sure we always have food on hand for him too. 

We plan on blending up whatever we make for family meals for him, rather than buying jarred foods. We used a Baby Bullet for his 2 year old brother, and only used a few jars/packaged meals for him while he was at the stage of eating pureed foods. It worked out well for us, and I’m sure it saved us a ton of money. πŸ™‚

Baby Update

My baby was born 9/13/16 weighing 7 pounds 10 ounces, and dropped more than 10% of his weight before he started gaining. He got so skinny that my husband and I were scared he might need hospitalization. I had been breastfeeding him what felt like non-stop too. We decided to go buy some formula and call his pediatrician. They had us come in that day instead of waiting the 2 days for his scheduled appointment. They said we did the right thing by adding some formula. I was told to increase my fluid intake, try fenugreek, and pump after feedings to increase my supply. He was still below his birth weight at his two week check up, so we had to schedule more weight checks. His last one was Friday 10/14, and he weighed 8 pounds 10 ounces! He put on 1 pound 11 ounces in only 9 days. πŸ™‚ He’s now weighing about what would be expected if he hadn’t had trouble gaining early on. We supplement with 4-6 ounces of formula daily, and I pump most of his meals. He doesn’t have a very Β good latch, and he’s a lazy eater. He falls asleep so quickly when on the breast. Early on I thought he was eating enough, because he was still suckling. He’s getting more milk when he nurses now, but he still falls asleep quickly. I usually have to give him some pumped milk or formula after a nursing session to keep him satisfied longer.

The worries about his size, and fears of hospitalization are gone. It is a lot of work this time around, but Β he’s worth it.

Now I am having anxiety about my return to work in just over a week. I have been out of work since 7/29/16, so it will be tough. My sleep habits have changed so much. I have the newborn keeping me up all night, and we’ve been doing some home remodeling which keeps us up until 2-3 am most days. My work schedule means I need to wake up by 2am, not just be falling asleep! My husband goes back to work on 10/22, so we’ll see if we can get our sleep pattern back by then. He needs to be up around 3:30 am. We never got much sleep as it was, so if we can get to bed by 10 on his nights and 9 on mine we should be ok. (As long as the baby doesn’t need to nurse Β between 9pm and 2am on my work days.) My husband and I sacrifice our need for sleep to make sure the one who has to work can get rest. πŸ™‚

It’s time for me to get back to the remodel, so that’s all the update I have today.

The Baby Has Dropped

Monday morning I woke up to a very noticable change. I could breathe easy. πŸ™‚

I discovered the baby had changed his position quite a bit. His bottom was no longer resting up near my ribs it was much closer to my belly button. I had never experienced this before during pregnancy, so I had to read some articles about what was going on.

According to the information I found, it could mean delivery was soon to follow. I was quite nervous since I am still stitched up. If I were to go into active labor my cervix could tear. I called my doctor to see if this change meant I should have my stitch removed right away, rather than my scheduled date of Friday. They told me that I didn’t have to worry unless I was having 4-5 uncomortable contractions per hour. I was contracting, but only about twice an hour.

I had a non stress test scheduled for the next day anyway, so I just kept hydrated and monitored my contractions…..while also packing my hospital bag and diaper bag for the new baby. πŸ™‚

When my husband came home from work that night we also cleaned out our car and installed the car seat. Just in case.

My NST the next day went perfectly. I didn’t have any contractions, so they didn’t suggest removing my stitch early.

My husband and I are realizing how soon this little one could arrive, so we are getting more preparations done. Next on my list is to assemble the crib, even though we will probably use a bassinet for a while.

I have had a feeling that this pregnancy might actually end naturally rather than with induction. This dropping of the baby is adding to my feeling. Once my stitch is removed, every twinge I feel will make me believe labor is starting. I will be so nervous this weekend while my husband is working. Being my third pregnancy who knows how quickly labor might progress? I don’t have any support to be here to drive me to the hospital, or help with my other 2 kids. I will just have to pray that my husband will be with me when the time does come, or that he will get home in time.